Admittedly, relief and guilt come in equal measure when Matt lets it drop, taking the hint. She can tell that he's read into it that there's something on her mind she isn't willing to talk about suddenly, which is where the guilt comes in. But he's also read into the fact that pushing isn't going to help and he's relented; therein lies the relief. It makes her feel like a hypocrite because she's forever feeling like she wishes Matt would open up more when she can tell a part of him wants to, but she can't help it. It's a scary subject. They'll get there eventually, but today is not the day.

"See?" she asks with a warm smile, her fingers moving to the back of his head and the nape of his neck to massage the shampoo into his hair and scalp there, too. "It's kind of amazing right?"

Lydia takes her time because she's already finished but her hair is longer and took him a bit more time. She thinks it's only fair to extend the same amount of attention to him even though he doesn't require it. It feels nice, so she might as well. Once she's finished a few minutes later, she starts to guide him toward the water, holding him close and sort of swaying the two of them until they've turned half a circle and he's under the water instead. "Close your eyes," she says softly, shivering reflexively when the cool air hits her wet skin without the warmth of the water to block the chill.