She notices the look of sympathy and ignores it. What she wants is to forget again. She wants to let those feelings of euphoria come back and drown out her feelings of self-doubt and self-loathing. Then the worst feeling she had experienced had been Derek's rejection. Right now it feels like everything is so much worse.

Forget, she wills herself. Forget, forget, forget. Let the memories that slipped through go back into hiding again. She doesn't want to hear that there might be other people, other than the two of them, that are messes as well. It doesn't change her past. It doesn't change what she did.

Katniss doesn't want to talk anymore. Derek had been right in the first place; they should get back to work. Then none of these thoughts would have made their way through. So she nods in response even though she doesn't exactly know what he means. It's better than admitting that though. "Okay."