The confirmation doesn't make her feel any better, but at the same time, it's not confirming anything she doesn't already know. If anything, it just clarifies the doubt in her head, about whether or not she was there after that fight, and in some way it gives her a sense of resolution about it all. It's not ideal, but considering the lifestyle she and her family (along with her friends) lived...
She hadn't been lying, when she told Scott that it was okay. Well, maybe not okay, exactly, but Lydia's confirmation isn't as devastating of a blow as she thought it might be. Lydia had lived and had even fought against Berserkers. Hopefully the others were okay, too, and that's something, right? The Nogitsune hadn't won. That's something.
At the same time, though, Allison knows all too well what losing a loved one does to you. She had buried her aunt, and her mother. Loss isn't an unknown concept to her, and she still remembers how it had felt like it cut her at her knees and kicked her in the teeth. She knows how it leaves that piece of you carved out, with a hole that feels like it can never be filled, and it breaks her heart to know that she had done that to Lydia. If anything, that's what makes her own eyes get glassy when she sees the way that Lydia's fill with tears, and instead of saying anything she just pulls her best friend into a tight hug. 'I'm sorry,' she wants to say, but she already knows that's not even close to enough so she just holds her a little tighter still.
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She hadn't been lying, when she told Scott that it was okay. Well, maybe not okay, exactly, but Lydia's confirmation isn't as devastating of a blow as she thought it might be. Lydia had lived and had even fought against Berserkers. Hopefully the others were okay, too, and that's something, right? The Nogitsune hadn't won. That's something.
At the same time, though, Allison knows all too well what losing a loved one does to you. She had buried her aunt, and her mother. Loss isn't an unknown concept to her, and she still remembers how it had felt like it cut her at her knees and kicked her in the teeth. She knows how it leaves that piece of you carved out, with a hole that feels like it can never be filled, and it breaks her heart to know that she had done that to Lydia. If anything, that's what makes her own eyes get glassy when she sees the way that Lydia's fill with tears, and instead of saying anything she just pulls her best friend into a tight hug. 'I'm sorry,' she wants to say, but she already knows that's not even close to enough so she just holds her a little tighter still.