She should know better. That's the first thing that crosses her mind. She should know better. It might be illegal for her to carry around that bow and quiver but it's become more of a safety blanket than anything else. It's a reminder of who she had been in Panem. Sure, that girl had been a girl she had despised but at least that girl never doubted her identity. Never had to deal with the memories and nightmares of a stranger being tossed about in her head. That bow is only ever used at the range Clint had shown her shortly after arrival and yet she carries it around most times regardless.
It shouldn't be so surprising that right now, the one time she thinks it's actually safe to leave her bow and quiver at the table with her sister, it turns out to be just the opposite. Maybe if she had her bow, she wouldn't freeze when the men come rushing in with their pipes. They scream but what they say isn't so important. It's the pipes and the violence Katniss notices more than anything else. And the fact that Prim isn't by her side. They're separated again and with the sudden chaos in the room, Katniss has no way to get to her.
That's when she sees it. She's below ground again, but now in District 13 instead of Alpha Complex. The bombs are exploding above them and it's only a matter of minutes before the blast doors are to be shut. But Prim isn't there. Katniss doesn't know where her sister is and she and Gale are racing up the stairs to find her. Then Prim's there and Katniss is yelling at her but somehow they make it all safely into the shelter.
Then she's above ground again, drowning in a different memory. Seeing Prim's shirt tail flap in the wind like the tail of a duck as she hurries over to an injured child. The silver parachutes remain littered on the ground of Snow's mansion and Katniss is still stuck in the crowd of refugees. She's trying to push through, trying to make her way to the sister and the child. Is that what she's doing right now? Because she sees Prim moving through the commissary crowd right now, heading directly towards an injured person. The jumpsuit doesn't have a tail to flap behind it and Prim doesn't carry any kind of medical kit. That doesn't matter.
Because she's certain everything's been lit on fire. That's what happened last time. Her sister went to the child and then the parachutes went off again. Katniss had been close to Prim but not close enough to save her. Or close enough to die with her. (And she should've. She so should've died with her.) She's a fire mutt and mutt's aren't good for anything but death and destruction and even then, Katniss can't move. She's trapped in the memories, drowning, and completely unaware of one of the armed men running towards her.
"Down with the Specials!" he shouts, raising his pipe to strike at her. It's the flames from the parachute explosion. Maybe this time, the universe will get things right. She should die. That might mean her sister will live.
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It shouldn't be so surprising that right now, the one time she thinks it's actually safe to leave her bow and quiver at the table with her sister, it turns out to be just the opposite. Maybe if she had her bow, she wouldn't freeze when the men come rushing in with their pipes. They scream but what they say isn't so important. It's the pipes and the violence Katniss notices more than anything else. And the fact that Prim isn't by her side. They're separated again and with the sudden chaos in the room, Katniss has no way to get to her.
That's when she sees it. She's below ground again, but now in District 13 instead of Alpha Complex. The bombs are exploding above them and it's only a matter of minutes before the blast doors are to be shut. But Prim isn't there. Katniss doesn't know where her sister is and she and Gale are racing up the stairs to find her. Then Prim's there and Katniss is yelling at her but somehow they make it all safely into the shelter.
Then she's above ground again, drowning in a different memory. Seeing Prim's shirt tail flap in the wind like the tail of a duck as she hurries over to an injured child. The silver parachutes remain littered on the ground of Snow's mansion and Katniss is still stuck in the crowd of refugees. She's trying to push through, trying to make her way to the sister and the child. Is that what she's doing right now? Because she sees Prim moving through the commissary crowd right now, heading directly towards an injured person. The jumpsuit doesn't have a tail to flap behind it and Prim doesn't carry any kind of medical kit. That doesn't matter.
Because she's certain everything's been lit on fire. That's what happened last time. Her sister went to the child and then the parachutes went off again. Katniss had been close to Prim but not close enough to save her. Or close enough to die with her. (And she should've. She so should've died with her.) She's a fire mutt and mutt's aren't good for anything but death and destruction and even then, Katniss can't move. She's trapped in the memories, drowning, and completely unaware of one of the armed men running towards her.
"Down with the Specials!" he shouts, raising his pipe to strike at her. It's the flames from the parachute explosion. Maybe this time, the universe will get things right. She should die. That might mean her sister will live.